Today I’ve bee…

Today I’ve been missing people. My heart hurts thinking about those I’ve lost. It’s nearly been a year without my brother and Little Bird. Suicide hurts more than just themselves. War is not the answer. Losing someone so close has never hurt so badly.

All the love is still there.
I just don’t know what to do with it..

it’s always my fault, isn’t it?

It sucks.

It sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos, old text messages, even old voicemails. And it brings a smile to your face, but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn’t be looking back, but you can’t help it because they meant something to you and you thought it was going to last.

Don’t Run for Cover

“Does it depress you? To know just how alone you are?”

I miss you.

It’s been 11 months without you. 11 tiring, heartbreaking months. I wish they would just find your body so I’d know you’re really dead, and not tortured or hiding from reality.

I wish I could’ve talked to you one last time, and told you that I am so proud of you, and that I was sorry for everything, and that I wish you didn’t choose to go.

I miss you more than anything.

It’s like once you’ve been hurt, you’re so scared to get attached again. Like you have this fear that everyone you start to like is going to break your heart too.

I need to be saved from myself sometimes.

That feeling.

I hate that feeling you get when you try your hardest not to cry in front of someone, but as soon as they ask “are you okay”, you completely lose it.

One day.

I hope one day I’ll pop up in your head and you’ll think to yourself, “I never should have let her go…”